The original post: /r/tooafraidtoask by /u/Cultural_Spread6697 on 2025-01-03 07:22:40.

Hi Everyone,

I am a 30 year old guy writing this post to get some views on if I can be called a Cuck. I am having some sexual thoughts about my current fiancé and would like to start my experiences from the beginning to help you understand my situation better.

So, I am from Philippines but am now living in North America. I met my fiancé when I was 27 in a massage center near my home. She used to work there and I went there for a full body massage. So during the massage we talked about various topics including hers and my life. She also gave me happy ending. I tipped her good over the money the center charged for massage and she gave me her number so that I could give her a heads up just in case i visited them again. I went there a few more times and don’t remember if it was the third or fourth time but she stripped naked while massaging me and let me grope her. She constantly asked me to enjoy it while she massaged me. We used to talk about different topics during these massages and I felt I had developed feeling for her. So, one day I causally message her if she would wants to go out, I wasn’t expecting a postive response but to my surprise she said she would love to. We go on a 4-5 dinner dates together before we decide to get into a serious relationship. We have recently got engaged and she asked if I would want to stop working at the massage center. I said it’s totally up to her if she wants to work there after marriage or not. The thing is I know I was not the only customer she stripped for or gave happy ending too. I am sure she must be doing it for her other customers too and the thought of her doing to other customers really turns me on. I don’t fantasize about her getting banged by others but constantly think about her stripping naked for other customers and getting groped. It helps me masturbate better. Could anyone please share their views on whether I’m a cuck or not cause I know a cuck likes to fantasize or watch their women getting fucked. However, I don’t have fantasies to watch her getting fucked by others but getting groped and giving handjobs. I haven’t shared my feelings with her. I would love if people of this community can share their views on my situation.

I would also apologize for any grammatical errors in advance and request you to ignore them as English is not my first language.